Wednesday, December 05, 2007
i am a gazelle
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
unite the clans
I was standing in the kitchen when it was announced. His Braveheart allusions make me giggle.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
let all that you do be done with love
I feel a commonality with her. My junior & senior year in college I encountered the same dichotomy -- there were really good-hearted people both in the church and friends from school who were making decisions that were not so wrong...and yet were not so right either. They were just in a phase that was not making me a stronger Christian. For example, clubbing (sex with your clothes on), drinking heavily (inhibition leading to unnecessary action), harnessing sex appeal, etc. As much as I wanted to have disdain for them, I wanted to embrace them. As much as I wanted to walk away from them, they didn't see the harm in walking what I saw to be a fine line.
What happened to me was that I wanted so bad to not 'judge.' Harken: Matt 7:1 -- "Judge not that be not judged." There was a desire to be all things to all people, re 1Cor. 9:22. What I found was that I was not not judging, I was compromising. Compromising time and energy. Time and energy that should have been set developing habits that build living faith -- note Daniel's example in chapter 6 of the book bearing his name. I was not then and likely am not now so faithful and of such devout habit so as to blatantly disobey the king and not get eaten when thrown into a den of lions.
At the conclusion of my college years, I found that instead of being a light to others, my character was weakened...and that noted by my friends. Note 1Cor. 10:23 -- All things are lawful for me [I'm on the right side of that line], but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify.
BUT...how do you interact with people who you have come to love and adore who just are not on the same wavelength you are? I think it comes back to the principle of time. There are not enough hours in the day to ever stop building faith through study, prayer and interaction with others who you can share your thoughts with. When you do find time, and we all do, to compromise, in the words of my husband, "Don't be afraid to leave." Leave the room, the conversation, the party, the wedding, the drunken hangout, leave even the thought process. Sometimes it's harder to justify that when you're leaving church friends, but you are more of an example if you say, "I really am not comfortable," than if you stay and end up compromising.
I think it's really vital to stay in touch with people. Maybe I don't hang out in situations I'm not comfortable with, but I can certainly be available when it's a good environment. We may end up running in different circles, but think of how much it will mean to them if I am there for them through it all. Obviously, everyone is there for one another to varying degrees. But to truly be defined as a Philadelphian, we have to practice love. Note Romans 12:9 & 13:10. And I especially love 1Cor. 16:14.
And that's really what it comes down to in my mind -- love people, put your heart into building healthy relationships. Of course, you can't be afraid of disappointment. Who knows where everyone will indeed turn out? But love them. "For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God," says Paul in Romans chapter 8, verse 19.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
mr. walden
I just wanted to quickly clarify the text I forwarded to many people this afternoon. (And for those of you who I didn't happen to text, read on!) Mr. Keith Walden, pastor of the Albuquerque, NM congregations -- and practically 1/4 of the western states -- is sick. You may recall the prayer request in the update from HQ...back in June they announced that he was indeed suffering from throat & lymph cancer. Well, it's not lookin' so good. I got the affirmed 'indeed' from the Robinson's (the Mrs' parents); it would take a miracle to save Mr. Walden's life at this point. Prior to the Feast he was getting relatively better; nothing noticeably negative. Since the Feast it's been getting progressively worse.
Also, I think it's worth mentioning that Mrs. Walden recently got over a bout with shingles. Another outbreak could occur if her stress level continues like it is.
None of their immediate family lives in the NM area. Some family, though, is out visiting right now. They're alone and that makes it worse.
I don't think we need to talk about how this would effect the strain on the already strained ministry.
This comes to mind: Bless the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits: who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, who satisfies your mouth with good things, that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. --Ps. 103:1-5
Thursday, October 18, 2007
why women still die to give birth
Food for thought: does sacrificing one life save others? Better yet, why would God hate abortion? Is it true that abortion is the solution in saving a nation's mothers? I want to dig into this one because it's so easy to settle for the murder arguement. In the minds of so many people, though, it is better to let the child die instead of letting the mother die. And it's as simple as that.
I would really love your input...so let me know your thoughts. Find me some scriptures, too. I am apparently biblically illiterate today - can't find a few of scriptures that are coming to mind.
Monday, October 15, 2007
across the threshold...
Just an FYI: I just got off the phone with John Robinson (re. my recent post about Ella). Ella's eczema is clearer than it's ever been. Now, he made sure to clarify that she has been getting progressively better. But, people really, "exceedingly and abundantly!" I am excited. I will be earnest in my prayers for her complete recovery. God speed!
As a side note: since I will be working in a professional dress environment, all the Ann Taylor stuff I bought at the Feast will be put to good use! :) Yay, second tithe!
Saturday, October 13, 2007
nasty
I had an epiphany at the Feast. Epiphanies are beautiful things. I get the same feeling when I walk along the flower garden and suddenly realize that there's a new blossom. "Humph, beautiful it is." The Feast this year was just that. The more excited I got about my ah-ha, the more it was like no other...that has ever existed.
I explained my ah-ha in an earlier post...we can use each other; our faith grows and multiplies the more bonded we are as brethren and the more we trust in our Creator for any number of different miracles and answers to prayers.
The more I talked to people the more I realized that many are coming from completely different perspectives on how God answers prayers. If someone disagrees or has a different approach on a matter, it doesn't make them wrong or Laodecian or weak. If I have an amanda-epiphany and most of my friends completely support me and someone else who I love and respect puts a wet blanket on the fire, it doesn't make him wrong. It means that in his wisdom and love, he has a different perspective. If I get angry at him because he offers counsel that I wasn't expecting or that I didn't want to hear, I have to swallow it. What good does my hurt heart to anyone -- even myself? Where does my heart go when my pride is hurt? To myself - inwardly. In no way does being angry, wallowing in my pride, at another's opinion do me any good. Mama Evans echoes, "Amanda Jane, do not be so nasty." "Yes, ma'am."
The longer I am in the church of God, the more I appreciate a lesson I learned from Messrs. R. McNair in my first Dance class at GYC 1996 -- there is a way of give and there is a way of get. Truly, if any of the good things that I learn are going to make a bit of difference, I have to live the way of give, unconditionally. So I ask, and if He really is capable of answering in the untold millions of ways He could, He will. ...really, that is the ah-ha.
Monday, October 08, 2007
GWT
Saturday, October 06, 2007
ella
So we spent the Feast in New Braunfels again. I love that place. It seems like it gets better every year. This year there were quite a number of highlights. One of the best highlights were the people. I am so happy that we got to spend time with David & Jen Ogwyn, amazing people. So are John & Audrey Robinson. It's amazing how God places people in your life at various times to just make it better. And I really do feel like a better Christian because of them. Yes, David, you make me a better Christian.
I got to know the infamous Kristen Vorel, lovely as she is. I met Miss Lacey Todd. One of the most solid and uplifting people I got to spend time with was Annette Frank. Yes, I've known Annette for years -- 11 to be exact. But there is something about someone who is engaged for all the right reasons. Annette and Charlie both have a solidarity about them that makes it really easy to call them friends. I cherish the time we spent together -- ahh, the lovely shops of NB, SA & talks about lovely lady things. ;)
Amid all this wonderful joy was an undercurrent of confusion. The Feast was not so wonderful for a lot of people. I know that many had a very hard time. The cases are too fragile to blog about. But the reality is that some people have it rough right now. I know I will be seeking Him "who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think" (Eph 4:20) for them and for my own lack of faith.
There is one thing that I keep coming back to. It concerns my attitude. When it comes to things concerning my health or profession I tend to just let God know that I've got it. I mean, why bother Him with something that I can control? This is something that has come up time and time again concerning a job for me. I want to teach desperately, but I cannot seem to get a job. Obviously, that means that I am inadequate in one way or another.
But really? Am I inadequate? Not if I am Christ's workmanship, re. Eph 2:10. If God really is in control of my life, then there is something amiss in that perception. Perhaps teaching is not what needs to define my adequacy. So what then?
This, "I've got taken care of" attitude was manifest in another instance I came across. As I got to know the Robinsons, John kept bringing up Ella's eczema. It has affected his life tremendously -- been a long, drawn out trial that has pulled his family closer and has actually strengthened his relationship with God. Fabulous, right? But I was very curious about if John thought he "had it." Because as he was describing it, it sounded more and more like my job situation -- "God, it's okay, I've got this. What I can do is adequate enough." Ella's eczema is something God could quickly and efficiently heal, as my getting a job is something he could quickly perform. So what then?
Then it hit me -- it's much like the demon-possessed boy in Mark 9:14-29. This boy has had a demon since childhood; it threatens his life from time to time and is quite the annoyance. There are two significant discourses -- one between Christ & the father and the other between Christ & the disciples who tried to cast out the demon.
Christ: If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes. (That's a promise...)
Father of the boy: Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.
and
Disciples: Why could we not cast it out?
Christ: This kind can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting.
Prayer and fasting, eh? Next Sabbath I am fasting for Ella. Not that I need a miracle...but it's a promise. A promise from God. Um, I think He can handle it. It has to do with faith, my faith, your faith. Our faith. If all I have to do is draw closer to God so that innocent children like Ella can be healed of infirmities they've had since birth, I kind of feel like I am killing 2 birds with one stone. ...or perhaps - God is "killing two birds with one stone." He's got me possibly thinking along the right lines and His healing power is exemplified.
What did you learn at the Feast?
Monday, August 27, 2007
brother dorm
To the tune of the song Adam Sandler sang on the plane in the Wedding Singer --
i wanna make u smile, whenever your sad
talk to you for hours when your day is bad
all we wanna do, is be your brother dorm
we'll get your silverware, whenever your eating
make sure it is b4 the staff meeting
it could be so nice, being your brother dorm
we'll miss you, escort you, give you our coat when you are cold
need you, feed you, even let ya hold the remote control
so let us to the chapel, escort you
compliment your hair-do
it could be so nice, being your brother dorm
we wanna be the best brother dorm.
Adorable!
But we sang to them first.
To the tune of Angel by Shaggy --
You are our brothers, you're our darlin' brothers
No other dorm compares to you, 4B
You're like no others, you're our darlin' brothers
You take our trays before we leave, 4B
We can fellowship & hang out in the noon sun
and we know you'll have our backs when it's all done
We enjoy everyday just havin' fun
We love your conversation & strivin' for perfection
You are our brothers, you're our darlin' brothers
No other dorm compares to you, 4B
You're like no others, you're our darlin' brothers
You take our trays before we leave, 4B
You are our brothers, you're our darlin' brothers
With you we'll spend eternity, 4B
Saturday, August 25, 2007
good music
I've been exposed to Delta Goodrem. We were driving back in Penman's car from a canoe trip on Counselor's Day Out and he had her on his playlist. It was very Jewel/Evanesence-esque. I love Jewel, Mark loves Evanesence. My favorite song is "Be Strong." Goosebump lines: "Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue? Do you feel like your sinking? Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through? Well I know what you're thinking...You can't lose your spirit. Let live and let live -- forget and forgive; it's all how you see it. And just remember, keep it together. Don't you know you're never alone?" It harkens Mark 9:24, Deuteronomy 31:6, Joshua 1:5.
The Stiffler's were up from Little Rock this Sabbath, so the Mrs. played the piano for hymns. :) It was delightful! She made us sing "God Shall Wipe Every Tear." It's page 131. Referenced are Isaiah 35:1-7 & Revelation 21:4. Such hope.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
was David a superhero?
It harkens Mr. Incredible from The Incredibles. He held it in and held it in. Now, my understanding is that David didn't give way to his superhuman abilities while dwelling in Gath. But he saved, "neither man nor woman alive?" I mean, it sounds suspiciously like he was superhuman, defender of all mankind.
Thoughts?
Monday, August 06, 2007
revolvemos
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
donuts
So Mark and I are working at the 'ole Outback again. Just for a week or so until we leave for camp, which is next Thursday. ...we found out what we'll be doing. I am going to be HS girls counselor again. Cool...except that I thought I would be Mark's sister dorm counselor. :( But it should be all good. Instead of being insanely busy on Canoe Staff I'll be on Communication Staff. But if it's anything like it was last year, that will be ridiculously busy too. ...it's all for the campers, they who are the future, eh?
Anyway...woo. Donuts. Mike, our propietor, head hancho, bought donuts. Man alive, they were good, especially when dipped in hot fudge. Now, I was super hungry tonight, so my senses may have been lying to me. But those with hot coffee. Mmmm, sisters. It was deeeeelicious. ...my senses had to be lying to me bc at that very moment I thought those donuts were better than Krispy Kreme Hot -n- Now.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
there and back again
Day One: We headed to Albuquerque via I-40. We stopped in Texas for lunch. Turkey wraps, yum. To note: everything in Tejas is all about Tejas. The grills at the rest areas were in the shape of Texas. There is a part of me that wants to tell Texas that it needs to get over itself. Another part of me, the larger part of me, wants to just say, "Viva Tejas, amigos!"

Day Two started out, obviously, in Arizona. We stopped at the Grand Canyon! So beautiful!
As we approached Vegas, we were able to see the Hoover Dam. Pretty incredible... On this trip I realized how much the West depends on the Colorado River. Right now I am just in awe of the incredible work the Bureau of Reclamation does. Many would argue that the benefits do not outweigh the costs.
We headed to Vegas that evening, stayed at the Luxor. I hoping the Egyptian theme would be SO awesome; thought hubby might really enjoy it. Turns out that the Excalibur next door had better shows...some sort of horseback swordfight dinner show. :) ...the olde English, castle theme was more fun than the Egyptian theme, as it turns out. We didn't really get to see Vegas, but that's okay...
Day Three we hit the Nevada & California desert and started on through some of the "passes."
As one drives north from Vegas, the Sierra Nevadas are just sort of in front of you. Before you really get into any passes or cross any summits, though, you have crossed the California border. Can you see the bullet holes?
The first and therefore most memorable pass was the Lida Summit. The little town of Lida literally comprised, oh, 5 shacks and a sign that said, "Lida." Gorgeous no less. On our way down that first mountain, which in retrospect wasn't so bad, I thought the car was overheating -- 24 miles from the closest town in the MIDDLE of the desert. ...no no, it was just the riding of the brakes. To remedy, we used 3rd gear ...for the first time!
We were able to step inside Yosemite, but we weren't able to see the valley, which I guess is what makes Yosemite. But we did get to see yet some more of the majesty!
Me at the base of Lembert Dome.

Mark at the top of a bald rock!
Dog Lake! ...gorgeous!
Right outside the park... vista increĆble!
The end of a busy day 3 we ended up at South Lake to spend the night with the Novak's & the Kovanis'. Thanks, Sophia and your WHOLE family! :)
Day Four: to Sherril's bridal shower. Made some really yummy white sangria. She was so excited, more nervous about our games than she was for the wedding day. Was it so bad, Sherril? Mike was interrogating her the whole way to church about the questions and how she answered. Rachelle's gifts were certainly the comic relief.

Day Five: church & rehersal dinner. Mr. Whitfield spoke. He compared Sherril & Mike's relationship to Naomi & Ruth's. It was very moving. I had a hard time keeping it together throughout the service. I hope for them...Many from church went the Great Basin for dinner. Though we weren't in the wedding party, we got a table and just fellowshipped; had such a nice time catching up! Mark and I had a great talk with Ben Millan - he so passionate about his career; I respect that. We got to catch up with Ben Nelson, Ken Blanchard, Bob Jones, Evan Kovanis, etc.!
That night the girls all stayed at the Colcord's while be boys hung out in Reno. We pimped out Sherril's toes and fingers. They needed some help. Thanks to Cher we got an education on how women "work." Very insightful...
Day Six was the wedding. The ceremony was gorgeous, at the Colcord's home. Ron, Sherril's dad, created a patio in the rear of their yard. In the concrete is written Mike & Sherril's anniversary date June 24, 2007. It was one of the most beautiful ceremonies! ...certainly not 1/2 bad for being planned in 4 weeks. Mike's jaw dropped when Sherril started down the aisle.
It was an 11 o'clock wedding, so we had lunch at the reception and danced our hearts out all afternoon. By evening, we were hungry again. France & Rachelle had to head back to Sacramento, so we went to Truckee for dinner at Moody's. Then back to Colcord's for sleep.Day Seven we left the Tahoe area and made our way across Nevada & Utah. We took the Lonliest Highway/5o Hwy. There were lots of interesting sites I am not sure we'd have seen if we took the interstate. Apparently there is a Sneaker Tree in the middle of Nevada. We didn't stop because we didn't notice it until we had already passed it. There is a lot of salt in the middle Nevada desert, who knew? In the middle of Utah 50 Hwy turns into I-70. And I-70 in Utah is amazing. I love the etched earth of Utah. I wish we could have made it to some of the national parks in Utah, but instead we got all the way to Grand Junction, CO.
Day Eight we went to the Rocky Mountain National Park. INCREDIBLE! I saw elk for the first time, tundra for the first time, I was in a huge cloud for the first time. We actually got to check out Winter Park on our way up. If you're headed there for the FOT '07 be prepared for altitude, a seriously curvy drive, and unpredictable weather. It's, of course, absolutely gorgeous...I think it will be a worthwhile Feast site, though not as wonderful as Texas. That night we stayed in Boulder at Mike & Sherril's condo. Great place. I set up their bathroom for them :)


...the pics really don't do it any justice!
Day Nine we drove through the most boring part of the United States... Can you guess? KANSAS (and eastern Colorado)! I have always had this dream to drive across Kansas. ...I think the desire was rooted in a longing for a super-de-duper roadtrip. Well, my dreams have come true and I will never dream as such again. ...simply bc I never want to endure Kansas again.
We ended up in Kansas City, stayed with Dave & Niki, their new baby, Ronan, and Sarah. On our way we checked out Jake's new pad, got to chat with Gwen & Gary's new baby girl (she is SO precious) -- and G& G, and we picked up Cherie... We ate dinner and drank espresso. Thanks, Dave & Niki!
Day Ten we drove HOME! Home Sweet Home! All in all, very fun, romantic, memorable, heartwarming and simply worthwhile.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
este verano
6/19 to Albuquerque
6/20 to the Grand Canyon & Las Vegas
6/21 to South Lake Tahoe, CA
6/22 Sherril's bridal shower in Loyalton
6/24 Sherril & Mike's boda
6/25 to Salina, UT via the Lonliest Highway
6/26 to Boulder
6/27 to KC for dinner w/ Niki, Dave, Ronan, Sarah and possibly Jacob
6/28 a casa
7/12 to Chicago for dinner and slumber party with the beautiful Katie Anne Orr
7/13 to the UP of MI
7/15-7/29 LYC
7/30-31 to Charlotte
8/5 a casa otra vez
8/10-12 Roaring River Campout hosted by Joplin
8/13 school begins
Sunday, June 03, 2007
FOT 2007
There are a few things we are looking forward to doing again this year -- hanging out in the hot tub(s) and the salt water pool at our condo, eating at the Huisache Grille & the Gristmill, shopping at Whole Foods and the outlet malls. Things we are looking forward to that we didn't quite get to last year or three years ago: perusing downtown New Braunfels & Landa Park, glass blowing in Austin, one night of live music on Congress St. in Austin, and touring/attending a wine tasting at the winery in New Braunfels. There are many more things that we will do that I am sure we are not even aware of...
Last year the Feast was so peaceful. We spent a couple nights just hanging out with people we love -- Ben & Summer and Erin & Mark and Kurt & Ashleigh just to name a few! The people really make the Feast. It helps that Texans in the Church of God are incredibly loving and warm people.
Granted, part of the beauty of a Texas Feast is that no one really thinks it's going to be all that great. Many so choose not to give it a go. That just means that we get to know people we'd never know if we did not go there. ...and like I said, beautiful people!
So if you haven't decided where you want to go, we suggest New Braunfels. It's absolutely wonderful. And if you really want a great place stay with us at the Waterwheel Condos. You can get a 1/2/3 or 4 bedroom, 2 bath, full kitchen, pull out couch, deck, washer-dryer. They're new & pretty sweet.
We'd love to hear from you if you're planning on it! ...or even if you're not, we'd love to hear where you're going!
God speed.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
in reference and retrospect
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Brad. Bradley Carl.
My observation is that Brad is like to many people I love. They settle and they're in pain because of it. It sucks, but it's real. Mr. Wheeler said a few weeks ago, "All they need is love," in reference to pastoring the Springfield, MO church. With Brad and with so many people, all the pain will disappear if a few strong people would love them. Some say we're really making a risky choice by helping him get through this phase of his life. I think they're whimps. If those of you who think it's foolish couldn't handle something like this, I feel sorry for you. I love Brad and regardless of how "difficult" it may be to have someone in my home, he needs us. If taking him in will help him become a stronger person, what better could I possibly do?
The coolest thing is that we get to practice our faith in this situation. It's fine and dandy to be religious around other faithful people. But it's something completely different with someone who doesn't know or doesn't understand the concept of God and certainly doesn't respect Him. I guess I get to find out if I am a hypocrite.